We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Friend or Foe

The only thing that is making me smile today is listening to 'Postcard (Chimpanzee)' by Barenaked Ladies on repeat on my Ipod. So I will continue to do that cause I can and I need something to keep me from flipping out.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Today I am thinking about

My obsession with getting mail is starting to spill over into and affect my everyday working life. I continually hit refresh on my hotmail and when I see it say “you have no new messages” I get that little sad feeling in my heart. When it says I have new messages I get all excited until I see it is the latest promotion from Pottery Barn or DSW. Lame? Yes. True? Also yes.

I just started being a consultant for Creative Memories Scrapbooking supplies. So far I love it. It is randomly making me feel more confident as I am now approaching all kinds of people I work with as well as friends and family members to discuss scrapbooking with them. Hub is helping by being really encouraging and providing me with ideas. It’s nice to feel excited about something.

On the polar opposite of that, I have managed to pretty much isolate myself from my friends. I am being pretty anti social, I am not really calling people back but then I have noticed that those people have just stopped calling. I have no right to judge as I am the one who doesn’t seem to return calls right now. But it still makes me sad. I sometimes feel like I could drop off the face of the earth and no one would notice for a while.

Also--I want a new camera. Really badly. Ours still works which makes me feel like an idiot for lusting after a new one, but I want one that works better. I think that I will take better pictures if I have a better camera. Which likely isn't true, I just suck at taking photos...so why do I obsess and keep looking online for deals. Too much time on my hands? No thats not it....I think I just like having things to want to do so that I don't think too hard about my life. It is good to focus on extraneous things.


Thursday, November 16, 2006

almost a month

It's been ages. It's weird cause I continally think about blogging, but then I just somehow don't get around to doing it. I guess I have been pretty depressed lately. Was home in Canada for a week, spending time with my Mum...now am trying to write something interesting but am too up to my eyeballs at work to even think right now..so this is just to say that I am still alive.